No one can save you but yourself

I can tell you that it gets easier, and that I’ve been you before, and that time heals all wounds, but I can’t save you. No one can. Even if I make you feel better for the moment, at some point we will go our separate ways and you will be left facing the thing you’re running from. It may not catch you for weeks or months, but when it does, you need to be able to face it by yourself or it will never leave you alone. It will weigh you down, it will crush you. I can make you forget, but I can’t make it go away. 

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